Stephen's Life

Thursday, 26 February 2009

  • i dont understand
    they say things happen for a reason
    i need to know the reason im going through this
    i feel like im lost, an nobodies looking for me
    i keep trying to find my way, but the hope im running on is slowly running out

Monday, 23 February 2009

  • i feel like i've been tied up by the ones i love an thrown in a bottomless pool, as they stand by an watch me drown in this place i have to call life. maybe i've hidden my emotions that well. that my own family can't see me drowning right before them.  and if they can why aren't they helping me.

    they don't notice that every rock they throw in the pound makes ripples. an weather them ripples be big or small they still affect me an my every-day life, but most of all i still feel them. cant you see im not happy here. i want out, this wasnt what i though it would be. i just want to to be myself an i need friends now more then anything to help me get through this but i dont have any (close) because you pushed them all away. and i cant just come to you for advise or for my problems, becasue you dont understand an if i actually gave the time to reveal myself to you. then you would have the power to destroy the only thing i have left. im not willing to risk that.

Monday, 16 February 2009

  • i listen, but the words your saying
    are slowly taking me down
    i stand strong becasue i care
    but now after hearing it again
    i find myself searching for the strength i once had

    i keep listing, because no matter how much it hurts
    there still feelings that stray to you
    an as much as i want to i cant
    an theres nobody here to blame but myself
    becasue i have the choice to listen or ignore
    an i have chosen to listen


Friday, 13 February 2009

  • here i lay again watching the rain fall just outside my window
    wondering if you've noticed im gone, or if you look at him like you did me
    its been so long, i've forgotten the last time i had spoken to you
    an here i lay again watching the rain fall
    wondering if i've crossed your mind today

    i feel as if im not good enough
    that i just happen to be your flesh an blood
    an i just happen to carry your first name
    i guess im the only one sitting here
    feeling the mistaken tears for rain
    an wondering when i'll see you again
    becasue you never seem to call
    when all i want is to know your there

Thursday, 29 January 2009

  • this was to him

    I was never good enough for you
    you had me believing i was
    you fed me lies to satisfy no one but yourself

    i honestly believed in you when you said you've changed
    but little did i know it was just another lie to cover up the last one
    its all starting to make sence, when you looked for reasons not to trust me
    you really didn't want to hurt my feelings but more was hurt when you revealed the truth

    not knowing what you were doing
    the day you walked out was the day i shut you out completely
    an for the longest i was so scared to get to where i am now
    not wanting anything to do with you, not having the slightest feelings for you
    hoping you would come back, and everything would get better
    but thats not what you wanted

    after awhile your lies became noticeable
    you knew what you were doing when you broke my heart
    i know what im doing now
    im planning a whole new life without you in it
    without ever seeing your face
    and not feeling anything when your name is mentioned
    i was never good enough for you
    and you were never good enough to tell me

Tuesday, 06 January 2009

  • You live and you breathe and then you die. In between, if you’re lucky, you fall in love. Some loves stay forever; others are lost in only a day. But it’s still there, underneath all the hurt and pride and years. If it’s true love, it’s never forgotten. So when someone says they’re in love, don’t tell them they can’t be. Don’t say they’re too young, or it’s too soon. Love knows no age and or length of time. Love is a feeling, deep in your heart, that squeezes you tight and you never want to let it go.

    Why is it that we don’t always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?

    You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love. ~ The Notebook

    I think I'll go anti-love. Really, who needs it? Butterflies in the tummy and hearts' skipping beats...that can't be safe.

     You’re not sad and unhappy, you're alive, and it hurts.

    "Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength. However, there are times in life in which it takes much more strength to just let go."

    "Sometimes I wish I was a little kid again....skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts!"

    Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet that person, we will know how to be grateful





Monday, 05 January 2009

  • I found this new Blogging site... and i think imma start useing it instead of Xanga...

    heres the link

    www.stephenswords.wordpress.com

    so yea if you want to know anythig just go there

    ceya later

Saturday, 03 January 2009

  • well today has been alright. nothing to exciting has happened. but yea so there might be a new guy in the my life now. im not saying its a sure thing or anything, im just saying im talking to a new guy. maybe something will work out... maybe it wont who knows im not setting my standards to high.

    so it wasn't raining today but is was close like the sun came out right before it began to set, witch was really cool =). it so made my mood so much better. i wanted to go to the park today but my mother must be on her "monthly" hahaha... becasue shes been a little moody XD. but its alright thank God its only for a week hahaha... but anyways theres this new show on Lifetime called "Prayers For Bobby" yea and from the previews it looks like its ganna be good. mainly because i could relate to it..... cant wait =)


    so yea here is the link for the previews

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBVcTCpKx3g

    oh my gosh... that made me cry. but in a good way

    but yea... Susiiiieeee i love you sweetie and you need to come hooommmeeee!


Friday, 02 January 2009

  • So yea im not in the best mood. witch then again for the last few days i haven't been in the best mood. i feel like life's moving on without me, like im standing by in the distance watching everything fly by. and its kinda scary becasue you cant go back in time a change things. *sighs*

    its been raining today-all day and its making me miserable. the sun needs to come out and change my mood or something. i need to get out of the house. i cant wait till school starts back. ha... i would have never expected hearing myself say that. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day becasue right now i feel like shit. i need my friends back...i want to live closer to them. and not a freaking hour away! errr.....i don't know. its been like two and a-half months since i've talked to my dad. i wonder how there doing and if they had a good Christmas and New Years. i know it kinda hurt when he never called....maybe he was busy, at least that's what i keep telling myself.

    Susie... you need to come back to Georgia, its literally not that same. =(
    witch i would still probably be in this same mood if you were here...but its not helping knowing your so far away =/


    Music : All American Rejects - Straight Jacket Feeling
  • The rest of your life is a long time,
    and whether you know it or not, it's being shaped right now.
    You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck
    or bad choices or you can fight back.
    Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world,
    that's just the way it is  but for the most part you get what you give.
    Let me ask you all a question.
    What's worse- not getting everything you wished for
    or getting it but finding out it's not enough?
    The rest of your life is being shaped right now
    with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be
    ____________________________________________________________________________________

    It's never easy to understand why
    memories hold our hand, but people let go.
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    We fight mainly for one reason.
    Cause when you fight you truly find out how much you`re willing to take before you break.
    & when you break you need to see if that other person
    truly cares enough to make everything okay again cause without fighting,
    liars of love could be walking all over the place.


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  • well for starts my name is Stephen Jones. im Currently located here in Georgia. Im 17 years old and still learning so much from life, and soaking in all the good moments. im so thankful for my friends i've been given. there simply amazing i dont know what i would do without them. well if you much know more then just ask. i like meeting new people so just send me a message or something.